So Logan and I are just finishing up week 7 of our 10 week challenge! Soooo that means 3 more weeks until I reveal our results. Let's just say they are good people :) Very very good. But also healthy! Nothing crazy going on over here!
I've just had so many thoughts buzzing around in my head through doing this challenge so I thought I would jot them down. Maybe a numerical list? They probably aren't connected at all and will just sound like ramblings but here it goes.
1) Through this challenge I have felt a lot of the guilt that I have associated with food and eating in the past pretty much disappear. I don't remember the exact words but on one of the pages of the program it says something along the lines of "You recognize that splurges (or eating items outside of your normal guidelines) are normal and trust your body to make up for mistakes in eating". How powerful! It really REALLY irks me to NO end when people around me shame themselves for eating certain things! Like OH MY GOODNESS if you want a cookie, have a friggen cookie, but enjoy it and don't complain about it. Okay I am being so harsh because I MENTALLY say those things to myself a lot (not as much anymore) but constantly filling the universe, and not to mention your soul, with negative emotions regarding food is so so sad to me. LOVE YOSELF!
2) I love my mom, seriously, I love my mom. Seems random, but it is related to that above thought. Growing up I can not even recall one time that my mom talked negatively about her body (or mine) in front of me. Seriously! I realize now what a rare and precious gift that is. We definitely (especially now) talk about health and fitness but not in a negative head space. I grew up with three brothers and no sisters so I was definitely able to avoid a lot of those learned behaviors that a lot of those negative food associations come from simply because there weren't a lot of females around to instill them! My mom cooked, baked, and ate with us. I can never recall my mom saying "I'm on a diet", or "I need to loose weight" or "ugh I had dessert yesterday", phrases like that are SO damaging (in my opinion). We ate awesome food, we were and are a very active family, and that was that. This is something I so desperately want to pass on to my children. To love their bodies, to enjoy food, and not feel guilty about eating!
3) And lastly. Loving MY body. It's interesting because I gained A TON of weight during pregnancy (can you say two hundo club?!) And slowly but surely I have been losing that weight. But I'm never going to look like the girlfriend next to me, or the Instagram account I follow, or that chick I workout behind in my HIIT classes. Simply because my body is the only one like it on this earth. I've been through different experiences than anyone else on this earth so why would I expect to ever be like someone else?? Guess what, I'm coming back from being the heaviest I've ever been in my life. But I also have never been more comfortable in my own skin as I have at this point in time. I wouldn't change being 30 pounds thinner like I was my sophomore year in college for where I am at now! Cause guess what, I wasn't happy. I was doing high impact workouts twice a day, eating next to nothing, and drinking A TON of soda. I wasn't healthy, I was skinny, but I wasn't healthy. That's not to say that I'm not dedicated to being the healthiest me, but skinny and healthy are not synonymous. For my child (and future children) I will wear a swimsuit and swim even if I'm not bikini ready, I will eat a piece of pizza (or 3) if I feel like it, I will exercise and treat my body like it deserves to be treated, and I will love MY body.
***Sorry for the random post but I just feel a lot of gratitude and happiness through this program journey and I wanted to jot it down. Here is a pic from a couple of weeks ago because I felt really confident and pretty in this outfit.
xoxo, Katelin-Jane
